Blessed Bright Fire

"Beltane honours Life. It represents the peak of Spring and the beginning of Summer. Earth energies are at their strongest and most active. All of life is bursting with potent fertility and at this point in the Wheel of the Year, the potential becomes conception. On May Eve the sexuality of life and the earth is at its peak. Abundant fertility, on all levels, is the central theme. The Maiden goddess has reached her fullness. She is the manifestation of growth and renewal, Flora, the Goddess of Spring, the May Queen, the May Bride. The Young Oak King, as Jack-In-The-Green, as the Green Man, falls in love with her and wins her hand. The union is consummated and the May Queen becomes pregnant. Together the May Queen and the May King are symbols of the Sacred Marriage (or Heiros Gamos), the union of Earth and Sky, and this union has merrily been re-enacted by humans throughout the centuries. For this is the night of the Greenwood Marriage. It is about sexuality and sensuality, passion, vitality and joy. And about conception. A brilliant moment in the Wheel of the Year to bring ideas, hopes and dreams into action. And have some fun....."  - - - The Goddess and the Green Man

Beltane means Bright Fire... I find it fitting for the current energy I am experiencing. It seems despite living in the Caribbean where there is only the Wet and Dry Seasons, I always find myself experiencing the frequencies of the Four Seasons. I suppose maybe it is because we are part of the Northern Hemisphere and my sensitivity allows me to presence myself to the undercurrents of the shifting seasons. 

Having finished final exams in Research Methods in Psychology , I have had time to sink into myself again and contemplate where life is taking me, where I am guiding my life's unfolding. 

I am 30, and 3 represent the creation and creative ventures. I suppose it is ideal for me to now contemplate these Earthly questions, after having spent 9 years prior to 2020 rebirthing myself. 

These past days I have been on my Moon Cycle, sinking into the intense pains of my womb's contractions, feeling into the darkness of my emotions as they surface for me to witness at this tender time when a woman attuned to her womb's wisdom can work with her shadows. 

        I felt anger towards my setbacks in life, 

               I felt sadness for being in separation with the love of my life, 

                  I felt fatigue from being mentally and physically drained, 

                      I felt my blood as it released together with my tears, 

                        I felt inspiration because of a dear encouraging soul, 

                          I felt creative as I ground my own cacao beans. 

As I sit with my second cup in three days, with beans I worked with while drying in the sun, sorting, receiving a precious gift from my little brother as he sat down with me, roasting then grinding them, mixing spices using my hands.... I find myself understanding what the words, "working with intention" and "ceremonial cacao" mean. 

My very own blend, has offered my heart centre an unexpected gift of healing. My aching heart clouded by so many shadow emotions, has remembered if only in this moment through cacao what the beauty of stillness and surrender are like. Where answers are granted as thoughts can do nothing but subside from the humming of cacao. Where answers reveal themselves. When the eyes naturally shut, and smiles greet my lips. 

There is a sensual softness vibrating through me.....                                        One whom I have long lost to a Beloved I was destined to meet but never unite with. One whom even through physical and emotional barriers, I feel as one with me. 

An unexpected Cacao Ceremony on this Beltane...... I am blessed in ways I am yet to truly understand. 

I find myself yearning to leave this body so that I may rest and return in a body that will function better. I have been struggling as of lately with being in my body. Cacao it seems, has allowed me to presence myself within every organ and energy centre that requires a gentle patience to be heard and held. 

I Am Learning To Be Human..... 

Learning To Be In My Body...... 

Learning To Accept This Path & Its More Trying Lessons. 

May this Bright Fire, Reignite My Sacred Fire and Zest For Life🌌

If you would like to read more about Beltane:

https://www.goddessandgreenman.co.uk/beltane/

2022年❖05月❖01日     

星期日                                                                        

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Trinidad, W.I 🇹🇹                                                                                                  

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